you've been tagged!

1. Copy badge “2008 Cute’s 3logger Award” di atas untuk diletakkan di blog anda.
2. Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yang memberikan award ini kepada anda.
- oh,this is given by Ja Ja.she's this beautiful girl i know from Internet.she's a friend of a friend too so its a small and wonderful world we're living in.thanks sweet. :)

3. Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih penerima award seterusnye (anda di-tag).

1. i'm a nerd really.not cool.

2. i eat a lot.more than you do, trust me.

3. i'm terrified of dogs.and worms.and dead cicak.

4. i love to sleep, who doesnt.

5. i can't drive.

6. i can't swim.

7. i think i'm a chronic channel surfer.

8. i love public transport (refer to question #5)

can i skip question 9 and 10? definitely.

4. Anda perlu memilih 5 penerima award seterusnye dan menyatakan nama mereka di blog anda.

- falliq

- adeb

- elly

- ili

- leen

5. Jangan lupe melawat blog kawan anda dan meninggalkan komen yang menyatakan mereka telah ditag.

- i'll try! ;)

little girl blue

oh makin hari hati makin berat lah.i feel like a walking time bomb.someone is leaving pretty soon and i'm pretty sure that i am sad about it yet i feel overwhelmed to that someone for getting such great opportunity.

i listen to Janis' Little Girl Blue over and over again.i feel like she's singing to me and it sounds so true and heartbreaking,these are the words Miss Janis sang to me.totally relatable.



"Little Girl Blue"

Sit there, hmm, count your fingers.
What else, what else can you do ?
Oh and I know how you feel,
I know you feel that you’re through.
Oh wah wah ah sit there, hmm, count,
Ah, count your little fingers,
My unhappy oh little girl, little girl blue, yeah.

Oh sit there, oh count those raindrops
Oh, feel ’em falling down, oh honey all around you.
Honey don’t you know it’s time,
I feel it’s time,
Somebody told you ‘cause you got to know
That all you ever gonna have to count on
Or gonna wanna lean on
It’s gonna feel just like those raindrops do
When they’re falling down, honey, all around you.
Oh, I know you’re unhappy.

Oh sit there, ah go on, go on
And count your fingers.
I don’t know what else, what else
Honey have you got to do.
And I know how you feel,
And I know you ain’t got no reason to go on
And I know you feel that you must be through.
Oh honey, go on and sit right back down,
I want you to count, oh count your fingers,
Ah my unhappy, my unlucky
And my little, oh, girl blue.
I know you’re unhappy,
Ooh ah, honey I know,
Baby I know just how you feel.

she's a damn great singer.there's no one quite like her today.no one can replace her.
and no one can replace that person who is leaving.hmm.

i succumb to darkness

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a quarter chinese.

that's true y'all.this isn't a lie.most or almost everyone of you did not know that i am a quarter chinese,indeed.my grandmother is a chinese.i know it's hard to believe since my complexion doesn't do me any justice in convincing that i have chinese blood running in my veins.

but no, i don't know any of my Chinese relatives since my grandmother is adopted by a Malay family during the Japanese occupation.i never have the chance to know them.maybe i'm related to Daniel Wu.maybe.

it's funny,not knowing your forefathers.you can't possibly just popped here out of nowhere.i long to know my family history (my father's side) but i just don't know how.my genogram is just a huge tree without names.i shall do some research in the future.

anyhow, Happy Chinese New Year to those who are celebrating.and to a quarter Chinese in me.

cheers.

of twenty four movies.

it's the mid semester break.such a brilliant idea to ship us back home after three weeks of studies. whose idea is that anyway.pfft. but i need this week i guess.i've got twenty four movies in my hard drive,ranging from Space Chimps to Valkyrie and Gran Torino.i'm currently reading a few books (non academics) but i do need to get some reading done on Family Therapy.and search a few articles here and there, evaluate an ESL website.i'm not complaining, not at all but one week is not enough.time speeds like a Ferrari you know.and after this, we won't be having any breaks or cuti umum.lucky we only got 3 days of class per week.or i might not make out of this place alive.


so this holiday is all about movies and books.i'm pretty lame you know, you should have known by now. ;)

happy or should i say unhappy holiday everyone. cheers.

an emotional occasion.

today was a blast.i went to visit Bella's baby.oh i don't want to go into labor.giving birth is not like pooping constipated shits.the baby boy name is rizki adha.such a beautiful name for a beautiful baby.i don't know why but i'm so full of emotions today.seeing Bella and her baby, listening to the pain she has to go through makes me feel, i don't know this feeling.it's not a sad feeling or whatsoever but i feel, like there's a bunch of thorny roses growing in my heart.it feels great partly melancholic.

can i be a mother? oh i love babies and children but i'll take my time.i'll have my own children someday.but not today, or 2,3 years from now.maybe when i can function like a real lady? oh, and i should get married first.

and then there's sya's wedding.i feel emotional again because i feel happy for her.it's good to see almost everyone there.to be married to someone you love is good.to be somebody's wife is a huge thing.you're starting a whole new chapter in your life.to be frank, i don't think i can be a wife yet. almost everyone views marriage as a once in a lifetime thing (except for men, i assume). it's a huge sacrifice, a noble one i guess.to share your life with someone.to wake up everyday besides them.to have children and grow old together.ok now, can i rewind to the "to be frank..." statement above?

i do want to get married,right now if i have to.but amsterdam wait for me.

i like the way you look at me.

oh your eyes searching into mine.i like the way you look at me.you make me my heart beats like a heavy metal drum.don't you know how bad i want you to be mine.oh so bad.you make every fibers in my body melt like a bowl of ice cream under a hot steaming sun.

oh we could have been so perfect together.but i really like the way you look at me.your eyes eyeing my laughter.and then i smile sheepishly.

oh how i long to be in your arms.marry me dave.

p/s: dave as in dave grohl.he's on the desktop.

ha ha.