i sometimes think that sex is repulsive.

or revolting.whatever.how could one watch too many porns? it's not that i'm asexual or anything but really,i do have the notion sometimes.sometimes.

oh,i should have so many reasons to NOT be unhappy right now.at least i should be thankful with what i have in my life.do you know why i should not be unhappy?

at least i have a room and i'm not sleeping on a war torn poverty stricken streets or hoodlums.

i still have my parents and family and friends, though i could be a jackass around them sometimes. at least i'm not an orphan taking care of my 6 sick siblings with no one to turn to, no relatives, no helps (yes,i'm quoting from Idol Gives Back, it's heartbreaking you should watch em,it makes you feel small and shitty when you complain about not having enough of things while all those children don't have anybody in the world except for some torn up pictures of their deceased parents)

i have all my limbs,i'm healthy though i have a decreasing vision.and bad bad bad skin condition.

i know where this entry will lead.it will be corny so i might just stop.i think we all should just be grateful.we may have lots of shits to deal with but other people need to deal with shits greater than ours.