UNhappiness.

you know the feeling.of deep unhappiness.you listen to happy songs.watch lots of funny clips.see the smiles of your child.look at the blue sky and all that shit.and still. you are unhappy.i am unhappy.

my problem is i'm a sucker for sad songs.i even downloaded the 25 saddest songs of all time:depressing music and their lyrics.

i must have been crazy or something.i wonder why it is, each time when you fight life, life always win.no matter what.no matter how hard you swing.

yes i'm quoting songs in this entry.so what.

i dont want to turn into a bitter old lady.my days are supposed to be filled with joy, ecstasy,delirium,all sorts of happiness.

these hormones are raging dude.its driving me crazy.i feel crazy.

i shall stop.