today was a blast.i went to visit Bella's baby.oh i don't want to go into labor.giving birth is not like pooping constipated shits.the baby boy name is rizki adha.such a beautiful name for a beautiful baby.i don't know why but i'm so full of emotions today.seeing Bella and her baby, listening to the pain she has to go through makes me feel, i don't know this feeling.it's not a sad feeling or whatsoever but i feel, like there's a bunch of thorny roses growing in my heart.it feels great partly melancholic.
can i be a mother? oh i love babies and children but i'll take my time.i'll have my own children someday.but not today, or 2,3 years from now.maybe when i can function like a real lady? oh, and i should get married first.
and then there's sya's wedding.i feel emotional again because i feel happy for her.it's good to see almost everyone there.to be married to someone you love is good.to be somebody's wife is a huge thing.you're starting a whole new chapter in your life.to be frank, i don't think i can be a wife yet. almost everyone views marriage as a once in a lifetime thing (except for men, i assume). it's a huge sacrifice, a noble one i guess.to share your life with someone.to wake up everyday besides them.to have children and grow old together.ok now, can i rewind to the "to be frank..." statement above?
i do want to get married,right now if i have to.but amsterdam wait for me.
can i be a mother? oh i love babies and children but i'll take my time.i'll have my own children someday.but not today, or 2,3 years from now.maybe when i can function like a real lady? oh, and i should get married first.
and then there's sya's wedding.i feel emotional again because i feel happy for her.it's good to see almost everyone there.to be married to someone you love is good.to be somebody's wife is a huge thing.you're starting a whole new chapter in your life.to be frank, i don't think i can be a wife yet. almost everyone views marriage as a once in a lifetime thing (except for men, i assume). it's a huge sacrifice, a noble one i guess.to share your life with someone.to wake up everyday besides them.to have children and grow old together.ok now, can i rewind to the "to be frank..." statement above?
i do want to get married,right now if i have to.but amsterdam wait for me.
2 comments:
all those emotions maybe come from ur innerself. i guess ur age is catching up with you and sooner or later you should get married and have babies.
dah tua makcik.hehe.
izati: tapi tidak setua kau.haha. :P
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